I wrote this remembering a long lost friend. We were once best friends, but difference in perceptions caused us to part. I've tried since to be friends again, but the suggestion has been disposed as infantile - since people change with time, and no two people remain the same two people. I however, S, am the same person you left behind four years back. And although we will never be together again, and I will always cherish your letters and moments spent with you, I will also pray to God that he gives me the power to forget you.. and forgive you.
Why do you trouble me so often,
Dominating my thoughts in the nights,
Imparting hope to once cross each other,
Without being oblivious to sight?
You pretend not to notice,
When accidently your eyes meet mine.
But I know you recognize me,
Just as the deaf recognizes rhyme.
You said 'ice' suits me fine,
For I am frigid where I should be kind,
Too sour when I should be sweet,
Not a mango, but just a lime.
I have tried to patch things,
Seldom, but surely, have also cried.
You said we can't be the same as before,
But only because, you didn't try.
Suddenly its a contrast between us,
You're the 'candy' and I'm the 'lime'.
I blame it on half-hearted attempts,
You can just blame it on time.
And years I will live remembering you,
Hoping you lead a happy life,
Cursing you still from the wounded ends,
Blessings can't be in a better disguise.
I know you have nothing to say to me,
You refused to even bother saying goodbye.
But I have these four years to share,
And those three which have long passed us by.
I want to leave you with my memories,
As we climb opposite towers,
The salty tears which reach your tongue,
Will from now on taste sour...
Comments
really touche.. but hey nvr break it up.. if you check my blog.. I talked abt this friend Shailesh Dixit, we had a break up like 2 times.. but then also got again... best friends those days.. and now also its kind of break up, but not really.. since a 3-4yrs have not meet up.. and another friend Chintan Soni(Dhakan), one of my all time best friend.. since Jr. Kg.. right now me talking with him online.. it's really hard to break friendship.. really hard.. had a experience.. actually I didnt wanted to.. but I think I have told you in email regarding that.. I didnt wanted to.. but he broke up.. I tried a lots of times.. and finally we meet up again :D.. so why dont you try again and again.. "Try Try Till You Die".
made cooler by Dhaval Faria on January 14, 2004 9:57 PM
Nice poem, words coming from the heart - seems you still hurt and not gotten over it.
Its sad, but part of life, and life goes on man. You got to cherish the memories and move on with life - dreading it will not lead anywhere.
And yes, people change with time - and I got a big list of people who have changed with time :P
made cooler by Preet Chandhoke on January 14, 2004 10:20 PM
hey Lime.. on the right side I can see u commented.. Wow, that sounds way back -..., but wheres it? I cant see it..
made cooler by Dhaval Faria on January 14, 2004 10:30 PM
oops.. sorry got it.. its under Delhi Metro..
made cooler by Dhaval Faria on January 14, 2004 10:31 PM
Dhaval: Yes, I read about your friends, and its mighty good luck Dhaval, if you still talk to them as acquaintances, if not friends. One can try, maybe once, maybe even twice - but eventually you give up if the other person does not reciprocate. And thats the time, you just give up and realize you need to move on. I am happy though for you.. for getting back with your friends. I have bad luck with that.
Preet: Oh yea.. I still hurt - and nope, wont be getting over it for a long time. Its just something that I don't normally do - hold on to the past, but this is one friend whose not worth being left in the ashes of the past.
And are you trying to imply something? :P
made cooler by Lime on January 14, 2004 10:45 PM
Oh man - I think I read one of your poems last year too in this regards - dunnow why you holding on to it man.
Imply something :P yes ofcourse, you should know that already now -:)
made cooler by Preet Chandhoke on January 14, 2004 11:29 PM
I guess the ball is in that person's court now...i hope he/she reads it and everything is fine again.
made cooler by Patrix on January 15, 2004 8:49 AM
Preet: I don't quite recall a poem regarding this.. perhaps something else I was holding on to, apparently since I can't remember what it was - I am not anymore.. :)
Good.. I've finally learnt to read between lines.
Patrix: S doesn't and wouldn't know of this blog. And anyway - she is not alien to my concerns or emotions. She has just chosen to let me be with few parting words communicating sheer disinterest and rude riddance. All she had to say was that people change - and I should accept that.
The court alas, would remain bare... the ball has been shunned away long back.
made cooler by Lime on January 15, 2004 6:07 PM
S for cool Sumita ?
made cooler by aNiK on January 15, 2004 9:57 PM
Huh weird - maybe itz Deja-Vu then, cause I think I have either read this earlier or something similar to do with 'S' a while back, anyhow.
Yup, about time you start to read between the lines! :p
made cooler by Preet Chandhoke on January 15, 2004 10:28 PM
Liked it a lot...Cmon you will forget about it in a year or two or may be just before you reach heaven say 100 years from now...?
PS: boy u will live a long life if my predictions come true
made cooler by The Geek on January 21, 2004 3:22 PM
Preet: I guess you feel so because I keep writing depressed poetry.. :P The theme is the same.
Kushagra: Heaven? Nothing aims towards heaves.. all aims towards a content life :) Long, or short - regardless!
made cooler by Lime on January 22, 2004 3:42 PM